Sometimes ‘doing Lectio’ can be very engaging from an imaginative
perspective … which can lead to great depth, and very honest conversation with
the Lord.
The beginning of the Gospel caught my imagination in this Sunday's Gospel. It is interesting that St John named five of the seven who were with Peter by the
lake of Tiberias
You see, a little flight of the imagination, but what it led to was
quite absorbing, and instructive … and challenging, as almost all Lectio
is.
Here were seven men, who had gone about with Jesus, listened to His
teaching and been attracted by the truth He taught; captivated by the hope He
was holding out to them of what it meant really to be human and even the fact
that they were sons of the Father and destined for an eternity of communion
with God in heaven.
And yet, at that moment in time when Jesus most needed the support of
their faith in Him, Peter had denied Him three times … but he was not the only
one to do so … Jesus had foretold that they would all fall away (Mt 26:31 ), and indeed they did
– spectacularly, if we are to follow Mark’s account (Mk 14:52 ).
Maybe, then, they were gathered together, all of them understanding
Peter’s sense of having let Jesus down, because they were all equally guilty of
having deserted Him to save themselves.
Jesus hade already manifested Himself to them on two previous occasions,
according to St John
A question I thought I might ask, would be something along this train of
thought:
“How do you know if you love Jesus, if it is so
easy to betray Him?”
What form might the conversation have taken?
Peter must certainly have felt it: he had been so vehement in asserting
the strength of his commitment to Jesus that he said he would go even to death
with Him (Lk 22:33 ). “And so said all the disciples” (Mt 26:35 ).
This is the year of mercy, and it seemed that on asking such a question,
the response would be one of mutual upbuilding on one level – seeking to
encourage one another that their joy at His resurrection now, and their sorrow
for having failed Him, must mean something.
Though they had shown themselves that their love had been rather fickle,
still it wasn’t lacking; and their desire to be faithful now must count for
something too. The fact that He had
shown Himself to them must restore their hope, and give them reason to believe
that He would not forsake them, though they had forsaken Him.
In their being together, I think, while they may not have been able to
answer the question with conviction, at least they were together. They could talk about Jesus; remember Him;
and together try to work out what it all meant: His breathing the Holy Spirit
upon them, giving them the power to forgive sin. Their whole lives had been turned upside-down
by Jesus, and they understood somehow that life could never be the same again;
but how must they now live? How could
they recover from their betrayal? What
were they to do and how were they to live?
And in the ordinary simplicity of ‘going fishing,’ Jesus came to them
again. He was after all the only one who
could reassure them that He did indeed believe in their love for Him and that
they in turn must not doubt it. Through
His forgiveness, He set them free to love Him more faithfully, more deeply,
more truly. And through their acceptance
of His mercy, their confidence and hope was restored, and they were enabled
after all to lay down their lives for Him (cf Jn 13:37 ).
There may be a powerful message here for us; for we are not so
perfect as to be certain of our unfailing fidelity to God. Our very tendency to sin is a fair witness to
this fact; and it is possible in a world where faith is not held to be a
virtue, to lose hope and to allow our failures to dictate the strength (or lack
thereof) of our commitment. It’s easier
to fall away and to give up; to stay lying in the dust (Ps 119:25 ) than to get back on
your feet and risk falling again and again and again … …. and again.
But today’s Gospel seems to be one which tells of hope and seeks to
strengthen us when we fall: as Jesus so often said, ‘Do not be afraid!’ So let us not be afraid, but
embrace the mercy He offers to us at every moment; and let His mercy help us to
deepen our faith in Him and in our love for Him, and let it increase in us, so
that His light – the light of Christ may never be extinguished.
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