During this Year for Consecrated Life Sr M Dominika who, last August, celebrated the Silver Jubilee of her Profession as a Dominican Nun shares with us her vocation story:
There is no one among us who does not have a divine vocation. Vocation
is about our deepest identity: it is the call to be utterly free, free to be
fully who I am. Each call takes place concretely in ways that are always new
and always different, always beautiful and wonderful, because God is always
wonderful in all that He does.
Who are
Dominican nuns? What attracts them to a life of prayer and penance, a life
seemingly useless to the eyes of the world?
Every Dominican is
called to be a preacher. Our particular mission is the Proclamation of the Word
of God. This is true for us the Nuns as for all our Brothers and Sisters. We
have been entrusted with God’s word for others, not a multiplicity of words,
but the most basic and fundamental one- GOD IS LOVE.
Love is our primary work. Love for God Himself because He is
Love. We bear witness to the fact that there is God who loves all people, who
loves them as individual persons, intimately precious in His eyes. This is our
message, our word spoken not with our lips but with our lives. We give witness
to the reality of God, to His Absolute Being, proclaiming with our every breath
that HE IS, and that in Him Alone ultimately do our hearts find rest. We are
completely focused on God but by that fact speak a word to our world, a world
in which God’s Presence is often either denied, forgotten or completely
ignored. From that world God called us and to that world He sends us. The Lord
is using us He is doing so in our brokenness and weakness; in our efforts; in
time of falling and rising. He is speaking through our humanness.
I was born in Belarus, when it was part of the Soviet Union. My parents kept the faith during the
persecution of Christians and they had me baptized in a village church 40
kilometres from their own town. Our family went to Mass every Sunday to that
Church travelling by train. Ten years later I received here my First Holy
Communion at night in secret. My parents themselves prepared me for the
Sacraments of Reconciliation and Eucharist. My father taught me the Catechism
and prayer, but my mother gave me a brilliant example of mercy and compassion for
the poor and sick.
In 1977 I went to
school, but there we were always told that God did not exist, and that there
was no Resurrection, and we never learned a true History. Maybe that emptiness
of Truth was a motivation for searching for it more seriously and deeply - but where??
Truth is not an idea, Truth is a Person – the Living God, and He found me
before I realised that I was searching for Him.
One Sunday when I
was in my teens, with my mother in church, a young lady asked me in a whisper
if I would like to come for Adoration. I had never heard that word before, and
I asking my mother to explain what this lady was asking me. My mother didn’t
explain, but nodded approval. This person was apparently a Dominican nun, but
she didn’t wear a habit, as that was forbidden. When I asked her what I had to
do, she answered: Nothing - you only have to Be. I though that would be easy-it
is for me and it really was and still is for me. I’m not sure what I was doing
at my first Adoration –but He was present and He was looking at me tenderly.
The Fathers of the Church translated the word’ Adoration’ – as mouth to mouth –
or kiss. Yes, it was my first Kiss, and
every 1st Sunday of the month, I came for another kiss, and met my
new friends, but I didn’t know who this young lades was for a long time.
After two years the
sister who was the first to invite me to Adoration asked me if I wanted to give
my life to God as a nun. I was very surprised. Sometimes we spoke about Faith
and Prayer, but that question I never expected. But how would this be possible
because there wasn’t any monastery in Belarus and no Sisters? She
explained it is possible – you will be the first …One thing the kisses but
contemplative monastic life, about which I knew nothing and never even heard of
such. It was beyond my capacity to understand or imagine. It was pure gift, I
never merited it but I accepted it and joined the Dominicans in 1988 in Lithuania. How
great was my joy when I realised later that the Order of Preachers was the
answer to my deep desire for Truth and the Salvation of souls.
On the occasion of my
Reception Ceremony into Order, the first question the Prioress asked me was-‘What
do you seek? ‘I was very moved by that
question- one which is not frequently asked .In the culture in which I lived at
the time mostly we accepted what otter was given to us to do or to think. As I
gave my answer to the question-‘God mercy and yours’ as prescribed in our
Dominican Ritual, I felt as at home as a fish would feel in water.
In Hebrew ‘Mercy’ is translated by three words: promise,
grace and womb. I feel that our Order is this ‘merciful womb’ in which we are
born to a new life, a new way of thinking, and a new way of looking at the
world and ourselves. St. Dominic’s God, is God of mercy. If we take from our
Bible all that is written about ‘mercy’ there will be nothing left! To be
formed by the Word of God means to be formed by His merciful love. Our
monastery is a school of mercy. Nothing can make my heart so gentle and
understanding as receiving forgiveness and mercy for my sin and the sins of our
world. Truth and Mercy do not know diversity. In our Dominican spirituality we
do not first gaze on God but WITH HIM as friends. God invites us to look on the
world through His merciful eyes and this is the way of Dominican contemplation.
In Vilnius
in Lithuania 1938 a
Dominican nun from Krakow began a new
foundation, but in 1939 War stopped it.
Some Sisters came back to Poland
- -some were living in Lithuania
with their families and in secret. When I entered in that Community in 1988
Sisters were still living underground, meeting together once o month, for
prayer and Conference. There was 17 Sisters in Community between Lithuania and Belarus. After receiving the habit
I had to hide it and continue my life with my family for 2 years, so as not to
arouse suspicion. Only at Weekends could I go to Minsk to pray with other 4 nuns. In 1989 I
made my 1st Profession in hands of Sr. Teresa- Prioress of Vilnius.
In 1990 the Soviet
Union began to break down .Between Lithuania
and Belarus
the border began to be built. Freedom for the Church slowly arrived. We found
an opportunity for the young Sisters from Belarus
to live together in Minsk.
The granny of one of the Sisters was very kind and she shared her only one room
with us. For us it was ‘heaven on earth’! Our life was very regular, prayerful
and lived very much in common, joy and forgiveness. When in 1991 our Master
General – Fr. Damien Byrne OP visited us he was very impressed of our way
living as Dominican nuns. In 1992 we began to live in a larger house. We had a
little chapel with Blessed Sacrament and 3 more rooms to live in and we wore
our ‘hidden habits’…
Sr. Miriam op from Poland became the new Prioress in Vilnius. She decided that
the tree young Sisters from our Community would study theology in Cracow. I went to Poland and
began my studies in 1993. I made my final vows in the hands of Sr. Miriam in
1994 in Minsk.
The Sisters in Lithuania
decided to restore the foundation in Vilnius,
and for that reason to close our small house in Minsk. After my studies were completed I
continued to remain in the monastery in Cracow.
The desire for a
foundation in Belarus
never left my heart and prayer. The need of monastic- contemplative life in Belarus
was very clear to me. Thank God we now have many Apostolic Communities, but they
need to be steeped in prayer, many new Churches have opened and people need the
witness of our prayerful lives. A Church without contemplative Communities is
like a Church without a heart. In response to that desire and need, God sent me
to Ireland
on the other side of the earth! Only He can do it like this and only Himself I
can trust, that is the best way for me today ’’to BE’’ in the heart of the
Church. Future in His hands.
My first few years in
Ireland
were difficult for me- not only by learning English, but also learning how to
live with one mind and one heart. It was very valuable for me to live with 8
different nationalities but it was demanding .I had never imagined that it
would possible to accept one another as I found in this community. Another
thing is that brings me great joy is the atmosphere of silence and daily
Eucharistic Adoration. St. Thomas Aquinas says that the reason we expose Christ
in the Blessed Sacrament is not so that He can become more present to us but so
that we can become more present to Him. Now the Lord every day reminds me of
His first kiss…but not the last!
There is nothing more beautiful than to be surprised by the
Gospel.
God is still calling
‘Come! Follow me…’ His Word is alive,
pronounced by Somebody who looks at us – it is desire passed on from heart to
heart.
Vocation is a continuing inner journey,
each step the first.
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